l.o.v.e

What the heelll is wrong with humanity for god's sake, it's all messy and just not okay. Love is the best thing that could EVER happen to someone. But what if the one u love is far as heck from you, how in the world would you even manage to TRY and make an efford to be in a relationship, I'm not saying I'm in one, but I would be. What about past loves? Does anybody agree with me in that when you end up something with someone there's still a little spark going on between you two? What if it suddenly grows back!? Its not just something as small as a spark, it's playing with fire now. But that's not as far as it gets, what if both of this issues happened at the same time? What if you love someone so much that you would take a bullet for them, and what if mean you're trying someone from your past manages to get back into your life or even worst, your heart. Shit, well believe me it's not fucking easy, since its kinda happening in here and fuck, you have no clue of how confused I am. I have zero clue of what the hell am I supposed to do. If I wait for 10 months I'll be with the freakum love of my life, now I can't be with the person from my past because I tried to make it work, it was going good, oh it was great, but it all stopped when things got heavy on the other side and I was ridiculized and stomped like a bug. Fuck it, i'm not gonna beg for you to come on and get some common sense to not dumping me without saying a word to me, but I appreciate the fact you talked to me about it eventually even if it was late as hell. So what to do, should I take a break from all of this major ass drama? I'm pissed, I'm pissed at myself and pissed at the world god knows why. But now, okay listen, now, what if the love of my life had a similar case!? And what if that person from its past came back and asked for something, something big and something just that it's really sick to my mind, I agree that people have issues and that they just don't understand their significant others but I would never, ever in my right mind would say to someone "you're not good enough", I mean not literally say it but just.....you know, and UGH. Nobody should hear those things, if someone tells you you're not good enough then fuck it cuz you know what? There's someone out there that's waiting for you, that's proud of what you are and what you do, that thinks you're good enough and way much more, someone that would faint if he could get the honor to be your significant other, someone that wouldn't care what other people think as long as you're together, someone that would climb the highest mountain, sail the biggest seas and fight the biggest beasts just to be next to you. And what if that's me? but then again, what if. fuck. S.O.S